I just feel lonely ..

Just feel that altho you said ily , or a love sign , I dont feel it , i dont know why. Just feel like is a procedure without heart .

Izit because gan qing man man 'bian zhi' ?

Or izit because I simply think agn ?

Just feel like crying all out of sudden .

When I feel that you not really love me that time , then you did something that shows that you love me .

When I feel that you love me that time , we just dont have topic to talk and always reply '.....' , 'lol' .

& you now also seldom call me ler , i ask only you call .. Haiz

Sms ? 15 min one reply , 30 min one reply , 1 hour one reply .

You say dota that time cannot do other thing , ask me sms the other time .

Then we gan chui dont msg only bah ?

I came back from school , you at college ; You back from college , I sleeping ; I woke up , you not dota then sleeping ; at night no need say bah , whole night dota or badminton .

See you boring , just wanna pei you keng gai , but also nothing to talk . Continue like this then habais ler . Suan le bah , Rang ta shun qi zi ran .

No confidence ler this relationship.

Dont think ler , trials more important .

Just keep that aside .

I just want your support .

After 1 hour -.-

BUT , from all these & from what I've seen , I figured out that no matter howw much you love that person , how much you care for him/her . When his/her heart change , there's nothing you can do , ppl won't like see you treat them so good , then turn back to you . That is called PITY not LOVE :D So just do my own responsibility , zuo hao zi ji de ben fen jiu hao ! Heheh , now I happy back liao == looks insane . Life partner is just in ur lifetime there's a partner for you to share ur unhappiness , happiness , stress and makes you feel warm and protective when they are with you :) Whenever they are not beside you , this shows that you have to learn to be more independantly cause they want you to know without them you MUST survive happily . There's no use to think if I lost them what will it be , my life is going to end ? Orrrr I can't live without you ? Cmon now life is different . There's still other guys outside there . As my mama said , Find someone that loves you , can afford to give you happiness . And you must work hard , achieve knowledge , be a better and capability person , JIANG ZI BIE REN CAI HUI XIN SHANG NI & ZHENG XI NI DE MEI :D And my look also not bad la , can say as pretty ( LOL , must dui zi ji got confidence ) , body still can slim down , not say very fat also . XD . If he don't want me , I also got a lot ppl want pls . XD . Ahhaha . But of course I hope that Jer wants me la LOL . Because we gone through a lot :D En mama papa , I know you all throw all your money into me liao TT I PROMISE I WILL WORK HARD AND EARN MORE MONEY FOR YOU ALL IN A RIGHT WAY K ;) I LOVE YOU PAPA MAMA . :DDDD

So now , I got my aim ! Jer is my life partner , for now , lets see what will happen in the future :D These days I bet less msg and communication , but I just wanna tell you , you are in my heart as always :D And Im sry for fa mang zang ystrd , cause i miss you so badly .

有一些东西我想告诉你:

以前從未有過這種感覺

我做的每件事情

都會聯想到你

Alright ! Byebye :)

GOODLUCK TO MYSELF IN TMR'S TRIALS :)

Hmmm,

Byebye.