Should I just put down everything and be the 1st one to talk to him ?

Why everytime must be like that ?

He's going to leave soon , leaving me alone just like he left me today ..

Nope , he doesn't care bout me ..

I feel that ...

Walking alone in the shopping mall , went to the places that have our happy memories , eating ice cream to release my sadness , sitting down infront of mng , thinking thinking , crying in the public . Wtf , thought morning would be happy as I wore my contact lens , comb nice nice my hair , walking faster just to see him , at the end , he doesn't even care .

I tried to appreciate , I wanna talk to him but .. the way he look at me , i don't feel love . I know I'll regret next time for not hugging him tight and appreciate the last two days with him in school .