Talking to the moon -

I know you're somewhere out there , somewhere far away , I want you back , I want you back . My neighbours think that Im crazy , but they won't understand . You're all I have , you're all I have ..

At night when the stars light up my room , I sit by myself , talking to the moon . Try to get you , in hopes you're on the other side talking to me too . Or , am I a fool who sits alone , talking to the moon .

I'm feeling like I'm famous , the talk of the town . They say I've gone mad . Yeah . I've gone mad . But they don't know , what I know .

** Do you ever hear me calling ? 'Cause every night Im talking to the moon . Still trying to get you .....

Addicted to a song Talking to the moon by Bruno Mars , its so nice . What an emo song . Thnks to YapKahSing :O Hmmm , recently , Im having alot of problems which made me headache . :/ I wanna tell everything loud to someone that is really can listen to what Im saying but not thinking me as a funny type or emotional type of person ..

I know this person will see my blog and read all these , but haih , I've noone to talk to , or to share about . So this dead blog might actually listen ? Haha :D Sometimes I don't really get what he's thinking about , there's just something . Sigh ...

I acted that I know how to think , is just because I don't want you to leave me alone . I acted I'm not unhappy because of your thoughts and actions just because I don't want a prick in ur heart . I really wanna KNOW HOW TO THINK , because I know its so suffer to be emo-ed . Come on , in this world , who doesn't want to be happy ? I know I can't change your attitude , because you know yourself is a keras kepala punya orang , haha :D So I didn't want to change it . I really try to change some of my impurities of myself because of you . I even plan to make some surprises , or make some cookies or cake just for you . I know you did something for me too , sacrifised your time , money on me (: Thanks alot .

Recently , I chatted with 1 of my friend , he's having some problems with his girlf too . Its like his girlf sometimes don't wanna talk to him , treated him cold . And he doesn't wanna tell his girlf about what he feels . The most unbelievable part is that I advised him not to hide things from her , just tell out how you feel and couples have to be honest all the time to maintain the relationship & I can't even do this part .

For me , its so hard to tell out . When Im emo , I would just be silent . I hoped after I told you you would maybe understand or slowly advise me . You always say I love prediction , the things that I predict not accurate ? Maybe some ..

Yeapppp , I love you very much , more than you can imagine . I really don't wanna expect much , because the higher the expectations , the greater the disappointment . Maybe a lil' things of you made me unsatisfied , made me pissed . Just like Im hoping for a long time that I can see you 1 on 1 with him , at 1st you say its good and then you rejected . I was so ridiculous , this is what I think . Nvmm , disappointment is always (: Pathetic ? This is what you told me , maybe you couldn't understand how I feel . You also asked me to stand by your side and think , I really don't understand . Knowing you for months and 've been loving you for that deep , but sometimes you made me think that I don't know you at all .

Hahhh . Im not blaming nor hinting you to change . Im just releasing something that offended my heart for a long period .

I hope after you read this , don't ask me why or what .

I love you baby , just like I always do & of course I wished that we could be forever.