Every rose has it thorns .

Yesterday was a nightmare for me , I wouldn't forget .
It made me teared . I can feel the tears flowing out , wet ? Or cold ?
Then I could not sleep well already , thinking & thinking ..


Im those person whom cannot be alone , cannot be indepedant , cannot afford to accept the ugly truth . Lies are beautiful , aren't they ? I rather being lied than knowing the truth . Sometimes I lied to someone is important to me , but in my heart I didn't mean to , 'cause I don't want it go get worse day by day . Forgive my selfishness .


Thankgod , I got someone that understands me but noone understands my feeling . Every problems that I can't find an exit , I would ask him , then there he goes , grandma stories . Its boring , yet it brings me out from this maze . I understand everyone has different point of view , what Im thinking , they maybe don't agree . We can't blame them right ? Everyone has a mouth , they love to say what , we shouldn't care so much , 'cause mouth is their's , we can't control , right ? & We cannot force everyone to like you , love you . If there is love , there must be a hate somewhere . If you gain something , you will lost something in the same time . 'Cause in this world , there's no perfect this word .

All these things , he told me . I do understand but Im still frustrating about all these . Struggling in this whole maze . Maybe I shall wait tonight & listen to his stories again . Sometimes he scolded me just to make me awake from this world that do not belongs to me . He encouraged , yes he did , his praised me & he told me those encouraging words , well , if thats a lie , I would thanked him , 'cause that lie maybe can save me . It makes me feel much much more better .

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Everyday I do , is just study , sleep .
Thats it .
'Nuff said .
Ciao .